Stress Eating

I've been stressing about a few things over the past couple of weeks whether it is about us finding a new house, work, or the news about my heart murmur. In typical fashion, I have turned to food as a way to cope with this stress.

In addition to lots of wine, chocolate chip cookies have become my new craving. Whenever I'm stressed, I crave a chocolate chip cookie. Over the past couple of weeks I have even driven to multiple Starbucks or Coffee Beans in search of a cookie. Unfortunately, I discovered that even if Coffee Bean doesn't have any chocolate chip cookies out on the counter they usually have some hidden. This isn't a good discovery and I took advantage of this new knowledge again this afternoon. The road to weight loss success is definitely not paved with chocolate chip cookies, so I need to figure out another way to deal with stress aside from eating (and yes, I'm fully aware that working out relieves stress which is why when I don't work out this is cause for further stress and more cookies!).

After bitching to a co-worker last week about how I can seem to shift my weight and play the constant yo yo game of 3 lbs, she commented that maybe my body is at a weight that it likes. This comment got me thinking and I have maintained this weight for almost 2 years, much of it without really trying. Perhaps this is my body's comfort weight and I just need to like myself at this weight. Maybe instead of trying to lose weight, I just need to make a concerted effort to strength train and become stronger at this weight. We will see. I'm still coming to terms with this idea. I just need to try and make peace with my flabby belly.